For many years now have I struggled with depression. It brought me close to losing my Faith and could easily have ended, at a couple of times, in the cowardly death of suicide. The Crux of the issue (pun intended) came one evening, sitting in my college’s chapel praying the Sorrowful Mysteries of the Rosary, desperate to find sense to my suffering. I was taking my time, over an hour to finish the first two decades, and then I reached the third. Focusing my attention on the nails that pierced Him, I must have spent 20 minutes on the first three Hail Marys before I began to understand the sheer depth of love God holds for us. Time and time again we sin, and all we have to do is be sorry and ask Him for forgiveness (within the proscribed formula) and we are forgiven.
Through this realisation, I found the strength to continue, and since then, several times, I have felt a great comfort when I’m contemplating the Eucharist most strongly. Each time, too, I have most needed it, being at a very low point and searching for a way up.
The purpose of this post, rambling though it is, is to remind you that God is there and He has given you a Guardian Angel, so at no point are you fighting alone. Further to this, Legio Christi has numerous members who either are going through or have gone through a similar fight and are more than willing to lend their aid.
Identify the points that cause you to struggle, pray for help, and ask your fellow Legionaries for aid. Finally, remember, at all times, that no matter what happens: Per Christum Nos Jam Vicimus